yaomi, 我一看你的帖也立刻想到caleb引的那节经文。圣灵做事有时候是让我目瞪口呆想不出所以然的。这不是说过程不痛苦，但结果是他做到了我自己永远无法做到的事。

道理我觉得你懂得很多 =) 我能想到的一点实际的：你到底有多想改掉这个毛病？how DESPERATELY do you want to change? 我们越饿，嘴张的越大，能吃到的越多。有时候不是神不给，而是我们懒得要。

do you believe it when God says "be PERFECT, as your heavenly father is perfect. "? (Matthew 5:48) 神会愿意给你留个“刺”？既然我们知道神也愿意你改，他又说 "if you ask anything IN MY NAME (which means according to His will), i will do it". 那就知道神在这件事上站在你一边。"the Lord your God fights for you."(Joshua 23:10) 用信心接受这事就成了。

我的感觉神也许在等你become desperate...instead of "asking" Him for things, try "crying out" for them.

任何改变都是艰难而且痛苦的。但我可以告诉你，我身边有很多弟兄甚至牧师过去有同样的问题都走过来了，现在也可以坦然的和别人分享过去的毛病。有好几个好像都是多次禁食祷告才改掉的，都不是一天两天的。以前我老觉得时间是我和神中间的阻碍，一件事情时间take的越长就说明神的能力越小或者他关心的越少，最近神在教我 RESPECT TIME: 时间也是他造的，他“用”时间完成大事，therefore time is IN OUR FAVOR. that gave me a totally different perspective on things...be patient， for He promised "he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus" (Philippians 1:6)
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the PROPER TIME we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. " (Galatians 6:9)

最后，一个建议，类似cosmopolitan的杂志最好别看了(不是少看，根本别看)。这恐怕是撒旦抓住你的一个破口。神不试探我们，我们也不试探自己。耶稣的祷告不是说 "help us stand strong in temptation" 而是 "lead us not into temptation". Timothy不是说"fight to death with the evil desires of youth" 而是 "FLEE the evil desires of youth". 也就是：“惹不起还躲不起了”？

千万不要觉得这样的罪没脸见神了，撒旦最希望我们这样想。说实话，这种罪比假冒伪善骄傲自大的罪好多了，当然不是说就不改了 =)

找个时间好好和神祷告，向他表明你的 willingness to change. cry out like a starving little kid!! remember, nothing is impossible to Him. may God bless you abundantly =)