看到安省弓弩弒父的新聞，選擇如此笨重的殺人工具如此血腥的殺人方式，假如兇手精神還正常的話，天知道心裡埋藏了多大的仇恨。記得有心理學家說過：正常人是很難正面近距離槍爆一個手無寸鐵的人的頭，所以一般都選擇後腦或者蒙上他們的眼睛。
說起弓弩殺人想到了一部電影：《The Weather Man》（天氣預報員）片中男主角也曾經用箭瞄準着另一個人的頭，
提到槍爆後腦又想起了另一部電影：《American Beauty》（美國麗人），這個故事可不是happy ending。
同是描述中年危機的電影，各有各的經典。附錄海報及部分經典台詞。

l remember once...imagining what my life would be like,what l'd be like.
l pictured having all these qualities.Strong, positive qualities...that people could pick up on from across a room.
But as time passed...few ever became any qualities l actually had.
And all the possibilities l faced,and the sorts of people l could be...all of them got reduced every year to fewer and fewer...
until finally they got reduced to one...to who l am.

我記得自己曾經設想過未來以及未來的我。
我想象過自己會擁有那些堅韌優秀的品質，使我區別於芸芸眾生。
但是，隨着時間的推逝，我發現自己不曾擁有其中任何一個，
並且所有我曾經面對的各種關於生活的可能性，以及我可能成為的各式人等都在逐年減少，
最後只剩下一種：現在的我。

I had always heard your entire life flashes...in front of your eyes the second before you die.
First of all,that one second...isn't a second at all.
It stretches on forever,like an ocean of time.
For me, it was lying on my back at Boy Scout camp,watching falling stars.
And yellow leaves from the maple trees that lined our street.
Or my grandmother's hands and the way her skin seemed like paper.
And the first time I saw my cousin Tony's brand-new Firebird.
And Janie And Janie And... Carolyn.
I guess I could be pretty pissed off about what happened to me,
but it's hard to stay mad when there's so much beauty in the world.
Sometimes I feel like I'm seeing it all at once and it's too much.
My heart fills up like a balloon that's about to burst.
And then I remember to relax and stop trying to hold on to it.
And then it flows through me like rain,and I can't feel anything
but gratitude for every single moment of my stupid little life.
You have no idea what I'm talking about, I'm sure.
But don't worry.You will someday.

聽說人在死前的一秒鐘，他的一生會閃過眼前。首先，其實不是一秒鐘，而是延伸成無止境的時間，就像時間的海洋。對我來說，我的一生是躺在草地上看着流星雨，還有街道上枯黃的楓葉，或是奶奶手上紙一樣的皮膚，還有我第一次看到托尼表哥那輛全新的火鳥跑車，還有珍妮，還有卡洛琳。我猜我死了應該生氣才對，但世界這麼美，不該一直生氣。有時候一直看完會無法承受，我的心像漲滿的氣球隨時會爆，後來我記得要放輕鬆，別一直想要緊抓着不放，所有的美就像雨水一樣洗滌着我，讓我對我這卑微愚蠢的生命，在每一刻都充滿感激。你一定不知道我在說什麼，別擔心，總有一天你會明白。