扭傷腳踝
--- Twisted Ankle
Twisted Ankle
扭傷腳踝
I stood in the dark, staring at the stars. I was out in the woods on a college retreat with some other people from school. It felt so good to get away from school, with all it’s troubles and worries. I had just experienced one of the worst weeks of my life. In one week, I had broken my cell phone, gotten everything in my backpack soaked, got an extremely low grade on my test, and wasn’t happy with my college grades. I was frustrated and angry. My roommate, who took the exact same classes I took got good test scores, but no matter how hard I tried, I never seemed to come close. I kept comparing myself to others around me, and the more I compared, the more frustrated I felt. I didn’t feel like I was as smart, or as focused as the other students around me, and I needed to get away from all of it.
站在黑夜裡凝視著星星，我正在參加大學的退修會，在我身邊還有其他的同學，能離開學校真好。因為在那裡我有許多的麻煩及擔憂。我才經歷人生中最糟糕的一個星期。在這個星期中我的手機被弄壞，我的背包里的所有東西都濕透，還得了一個糟的不能再糟的成績，我也不滿意自己在大學裡其他的成績。對這些我又沮喪又生氣。我的室友和我一起修同樣的課，她卻能拿好成績。可是不管我怎麼努力，成績還是遠遠的落後。我拿自己和旁邊的人比較，越比我就越沮喪。我覺得自己不像人家那樣聰明，也不像身邊的學生那樣專心學習。所以能離開學校一會兒是我所需要的。
It was freezing cold, the grass was wet, and I could feel the wind blowing even with my jacket on. The people around me started to gather together for a game called “American Eagle”. We all stood in the field at one end, while one person stood in the middle. He was the “eagle”. The point of the game was to run from one of the field to the other end without being caught. The eagle had to catch you, pick you up in the air and say “1-2-3 American Eagle”. If he succeeded, then you joined his side and tried to catch other people also.
這裡很冷，草地上又濕，雖然穿上夾克我還能感到呼呼吹著的冷風。這時身邊的人聚在一起玩一個叫“美國鷹”的遊戲。我們全體站在地的一邊，一個人站在地的中間，他是老鷹，這個遊戲的重點是你要從這塊地的一邊跑到另一邊而不要被老鷹抓到。因為老鷹必須在你跑的半途中抓到你並且喊著：一二三，美國鷹！若是他抓到你，你就要加入他去抓別人。
I stood, waiting for someone to shout “American Eagle”. The moment I heard it, I took off running down the field. I ran and ran. Suddenly, I heard footsteps behind me. Someone grabbed me, but I slipped out of their hands and finally reached the other end of the field. By now, my jacket was barely hanging on, and I was breathing hard. Then, I heard someone shout “American Eagle!” again. Again, I tried to run to the other end of the field. But, the grass was wet and slippery. Suddenly, I found myself slipping and sliding. Somebody grabbed me, picked me up in the air and I heard them say “1-2-3 American Eagle!” I was so tired and cold I could barely even move. But, I kept playing and playing.
我站在地的這邊等著人開始叫“美國鷹”。一聽到我就開始跑，跑了又跑、忽然我聽到後面有腳步聲，有人抓到我了！可是我從他的手中滑脫終於跑到地的另一頭，這時我的夾克僅僅是掛在身上而已。我跑得氣喘不停但這時又聽到“美國鷹”，所以一次又一次我賣命的跑到地的那一頭。可是草地又濕又滑，啊！突然間我滑倒了，有人抓住我喊著“一二三美國鷹”，我又冷又累都快要動不了，可是我還是玩了又玩。
Finally, it was time to go back to our cabins. One of my friends came and asked if I wanted to run with her. We took off running. But, as we ran, I noticed that the floor was really uneven, with dips and rocks. Suddenly, I felt a sharp stabbing pain in my ankle and fell face first on the ground. I tried to stand up, but couldn’t. I had twisted my ankle and it HURT. I could feel the ankle start to swell up as I limped over to the bench. Finally, I hopped back to the cabin and lay down. I could think of no week worse than the one I went through. Not only did I get bad grades, break a cell phone and get soaked, but now I twisted my ankle at a retreat. I felt all my feelings just begin to build up inside me, and I almost felt like crying. What did I do to deserve such a week? Why was EVERYTHING going wrong?
最後回到退修會小木屋的時間到了，我的一個朋友來問我是否要和她一起跑回去，我們就開始跑，在跑的時候我發現地上很不平，有很多坑又有很多石頭。突然間我感到腳踝一股刺痛，臉就朝下倒到地面，我想站起來可是不成，我扭了腳踝而且那真是痛啊！當我一拐一拐的拐到路邊的椅子時我的腳開始腫起來，終於我單腳跳到小屋躺下。想一想真是再沒有一個星期是這麼的糟的了。不只是得了壞成績，弄壞了手機，又被雨淋得濕透，現在又在退修會中把腳給扭傷了。我感到各種感受在我裡面積累起來，我想大叫“我做了什麼要經歷這樣一個星期？”為什麼每件事都不對？
The next morning, I stood at the edge of the lake to have some quiet time reading my Bible. I had been reading through the book of Romans. Then, I read Romans 8:18. “I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.” It seemed as if Paul, the author, was talking to me. I kept reading, until I reached verse 31. It said, “If God is for us, who can be against us?” At that moment, I realized I had been focusing on everything except what I really needed to focus on. I was so busy comparing myself to others, and getting worried and frustrated, that I had lost sight of what was really important. It seemed as if God was talking to me, saying “Even if you think you aren’t as smart or good as other people, I still love you. Even if you make mistakes, I won’t love you less.” If God is on my side, if He is on my team, then what more do I need? I already won. God reminded me that even though I have all these problems and make so many mistakes, that He is still there for me, waiting for me to turn back to Him.
下一個早晨我在湖邊靈修。最近我在讀羅馬書。我讀到8：18 “我想現在的苦楚比起將來要顯於我們的榮耀就不足介意了。”這本書的作者保羅似乎在對我說話，我繼續讀到31節“既是這樣、還有什麼說的呢？神若幫助我們誰能敵擋我們呢？”
在這一刻我了解到自己專注在許多事上但是該專心留意的事卻又忽略了。我忙忙碌碌的在和別人比較，把自己搞得又擔憂又沮喪，就忽略了什麼是真正重要的事。好像神在向我說：”就算是你看自己不比人聰明，能力也不如別人，但是我還是愛你，就算你犯了這麼多錯誤，我也不會少愛你一些。“若是神站在我這邊，他是和我一個隊的，那我還要什麼？我已經贏了。神提醒我縱然我有這麼多麻煩又造了這麼多錯誤，他還是在那裡等著我回到他身邊。