JAGGED HEARTS
by Christine Lavin

I know that I never can have you
so I will not even try
if this had happened a few years ago
I'd have taken you aside

Whispered while no one was watching
looked deep into your brown eyes
but I know that I cannot have you
so I will not even try

I've traveled for most of a decade
I've seen some beautiful sights
I've met so many wonderful people
nothing has ever felt this right

But in the cool clear calm of the morning
in the deep dark dreams of the night
I know that I cannot have you
still I wish it with all of my might

It's 3 A.M. I'm wide awake
I hear the ocean roar
I wonder what you'd say to me
if I just showed up at your door

Your dogs would bark you'd let me in
you'd gently take my hand
explain to me why this could not be
I'd say "I understand"

There's no sense in taking this further
experience is making me wise
I know when I'm close to that danger zone
where jagged hearts collide

Is maturity smoothing my edges
or making love easier to deny?
all I know is that I can't have you
so I will not even try
I know that I cannot have you