萬事都互相效力，叫愛　神的人得益處, indeed.

you are so lucky, you 得福音是從主耶穌,

me not, I heard 福音 from a fellowship when I was at Indiana University,
they are my role model, thus, I should do my best to benefit others who
need 福音 desperately. In fact, to tell others about Jesus Christ and His
Gospel is our responsibility and a must-to-do.

I did not do as much as I should because I love the world too much,
I love the Lord too little. The real interest conflict is here.

The real motivation for us to tell others about Jesus Christ and His
Gospel is that JESUS-LOVED-ME-FIRST-SO-I-SHOULD-LOVE-OTHERS and IF-THE-LOST-
PEOPLE-COULD-NOT-KNOW-JESUS-THEN-THEY-WOULD-GO-TO-THE-HELL-DIRECTLY.

In reality
this motivation doesn't last constantly as it should.

Speaking of myself,
my love to people all over the world is much much less than 1/2 to my
son, this is why I owe Lord Jesus Christ too much!