Hello,

I feel the same way when I read some paragraphy in Bible. I feel scared : if God is like that, I'd rather go away. One day I accicdentaly read a Psalm, about how David curse his enemies -- really low!

I do believe there is a super powerful creator in this university, but I really don't believe HE will engage himself into those disgusting punishment -- The super powerful, intelligent can't co-exist with
cold heart, non-sense, disgusting punishment.

And another thing, look the real world: Does GOD really punish those people who live in a unfaithful life? I don't think so.

I have a husband who is a unbeliever, whenever I read the bible, he'll fight with me, and abuse me : the more he abuse me, the more success his career, and he is simply laugh at me: where is your GOD? why HE is not coming to help you?

I still suffer with lots of real troubles in life, I ask, I pray, GOD, give me a life I deserve, give me a husband who loves me, I do feel the blessing sometimes, but most times HE left me wondering..