I believed Buddhism from childhood under the influence of my grandma, I even wanted to go to some place without earthly people to 修行. Even I read loud "阿弥陀佛" very often; I couldn't get peace in my heart. Late years I got severe depression which last for a long time; I also had terrible nightmares; my relationship with my husband was getting bad even in the eyes of people we are good lovers; I even thought of suicide and I felt lonely and couldn’t control my anger all the time. I couldn’t figure out any way to save me. I read the literatures of 禅, 庄子, 孔子 and some others; it made me feel better but my life didn’t change. I went to church long time ago but defended myself not to believe it because of the influence of Buddhism.

Almost one year ago, I went to church in the goal of making friends and relaxing myself. But there I finally realized Jesus is the truth and all worlds were created by God. I accept Jesus as my life saver and began to pray every night. Surprisingly my life changed so dramatically and I got much happier. This change is found by my husband (who became a Christian this March) and then by my friends.

Even unbelievable things happened later that I found I had demons in my body (I will explain that later because it is a long story), after I prayed in the name of Jesus, the demons went out like air force (which I felt but couldn’t describe in a clear way). The demons didn’t leave me at once. The expelling lasted several months. In the end of this May, I went to a special meeting where I confessed my sin sincerely and also declared that I was willing to forgive the people that hurt me deeply and also declared I wouldn’t belong to dark world anymore and I would cut the connection with demons in the name of Jesus. That night when my husband and I prayed for God to help me to expel the demon again, the demons pushed out in air and I couldn’t control my body and my voice was changed and some other people was speaking in my body. I had very clear conscience but I couldn’t control myself. I hear somebody was crying out God so sadly. My husband was scared at once but realized the situation soon and prayed for me and that time, I could feel the power of God, I could feel that he is seating in his throne as a highest king although I couldn’t see. I could feel the demons were so low in front of God. The shouting and crying of the demons lasted for several hours in the midnight and I couldn’t describe the situation very well, but I was so astonished that spiritual world is so real.

These days my life is getting so much better, my depression is gone, I am much happier and my marriage is getting sweeter and sweeter. My nightmares are gone, no demons in my dream, no snakes, no blood, no killing … in my dream any more, I can sleep so soundly. I can feel the love from God in my heart and know that he hear my prayers. God is love and he loves sinners like me, like you and is willing to save us from the hands of evil and the dark world, to save us from falling to hell.

The only thing I regret is that I didn’t know Jesus earlier. Otherwise I don’t need to experience so many tragic things and my time wouldn’t waste so much.