after I finish reading it, I'm really shocked. I have the exact situation here. The differenc is the first time I got pregnant, we still were fighting and once he even beat me. Then two months later, I got miscarriage. I also think about divorce. that was a very hard time for him to look for a job. Two years later, I go to school, it's so hard to get my visa changed. It cost him so much money and energy. So sometimes I don't think it's right to leave him right after I'm independent. Most of time I feel huge gap between us. But he doesn't think that's important for our marriage. We are still fighting, arguing, ... Now I always tell myself not to get pregnant before I know I can stay with him.So I try to live in separate bedroom. what a kind of life I have. I totally understand what you feel. I don't know what will happen next.