As much as you want me, I want you, I want all of you.

Although you already know, as well as I know, this will be my first time admitting it: I am in love with you.

Last night on the phone, when you described how you were going to love me, you literally took my breath away.

Two years ago, you asked me why I was attracted to you. Last night, I asked you what you thought why I was attracted to you.

Yes, you understand me, you appreciate me. But I don't love simply because being loved.

Yes, you are fit and physically attractive. But there are many fit and handsome men out there.

Yes, I love your writing. I love you not because you are a writer, but through what you write, I see who you are.

I love you for being who you are. You have a soul that I recognize and deeply appreciate.

You are passionate yet cerebral, romantic yet realistic, extra sensitive yet extremely tough, fully understand pain yet remain very positive. You are spiritual, yet not "religious". You are responsible to others, but also know the responsibility to your own well being. Life is for the living, I totally agree. You are capable of making good money, but you are not a slave of money.

The list can go on, but I think you already get the points.

I have fallen for you for all that.

However, just as much as I don't believe in platonic relationship, I don't believe in long distance relationship. It is not enough for me. For a person "so needy of emotional nourishment", it will never be enough. I want all or none.

I love you, from the very beginning. It was love at the first sight, when we met two years ago. That was why I cut our connection so quickly then. I didn’t expect that we would reconnect two years later.

I still love my husband, and my hope for him is still alive. Last night I told you I was in hell, because I was tormented by my love for two men. And my love for you has become almost unbearable.

I have made my choice, but I know the difficult part will be to carry on the decision.

You asked me to keep the communication channel open. I am afraid that I can't, although I want it very very much.