I did the same thing as you--searching name of first love in google. But my story even was more ridiculars than yours. I was in one-side love with a boy when I was 17 and could not get away from it for 8 years. He did not love me for sure but he knows I loved him. Last year, after unseen each other for 15 years, I got hold of him and spent 3 three hours with him together. I could recall every single moment I spent with him but he could not remember anything about seeing me in the past years. This is aggrevating. I got depression from the feeling, I am serious. How do I recover? Do I just let time healing me? I even told my husband. He just laughed at me. I am loyal to my husband but I know there is alway kind of love to my first love.