make a deep breath second
then
to have a mode as if you drink a big bowl of chinese medicine that is disgusting
then
read this article

http://www.chinareformation.com/6-7.htm

for us it is even more difficult to accept any sound doctrines
because we have been saturated with many concepts, many systems
and knowledge, however, we have to overcome all barriers,
otherwise, it is even hard to go to church each and every week!
who doesn't like to lay in a couch to watch TV?
who doesn't like to use 10% of income to buy a nice car?
who doesn't like to play golf?
but
the motivation of being comforted can make us have normal church life?
the motivation of a better feeling can make us have normal church life?
the motivation of becoming a better person can make us have normal church life?
the motivation of having a better marriage can make us have normal church life?
the motivation of child's brilliant future can make us have normal church life?
by all means, impossible!
only the sound doctrines can!
this is why it is tough to face the reality:
what we are going to do when no feeling?!
what JOYKING brother is going to do when getting up from being fallen down?!
what LuoQi brother is going to do after kicking out a pastor?!
the same thing:
do what Bible taught
or
do what we like
'DOING' is the core to everybody
'DOING' directly reflects our 'BEING'
thus
we must FIRMLY to believe ONCE SAVED ALWAYS SAVED!
why so?
because we can never satisfy ourselves, in case we are short of
expectation we still have strength to move on!

I view the parable of sewing in gospels and making Christ go to the cross second time in Hebrew in a way that we are taught to understand REAL believing and
EMOTIONAL believing, EMOTIONAL believing needs to transform into REAL believing.