今天在教會坐一老太太左手,她和她離婚的兒子坐在邊上,我坐靠裡頭,當我們唱 Be still, my soul的時候,我的眼淚悄悄地流淌,淚光中看見她打開她的提包取出手紙擦眼睛,大家都在看自己的HYMM BOOK,誰也沒看誰,我也不用掩飾,幾次抬手擦淚花,奇妙地是,我只有右眼不停地流,左眼只是盈框而不流淌,那一刻我強烈地感受到和她同被聖靈感動地奇妙,淹沒在一群同樣的羊中,和着悠揚的比印度女人還脆的眾女聲,還有混在一起卻截然分明的剛健的男聲,Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

感動之餘,心裡對這些一家三代同教會從小就受洗的人沒了隔閡,以前,老覺得他們不過是習慣成自然,沒有我這樣背景born again的感受,可是看看人家,這個離婚的兒子,他和我差不多同時辦離婚,他現在還未再婚,他的前夫人無可挽回地和他人同居,他自己現在忙着教會的諸多事宜,他還是個男的應該比我一個女人更難抵擋誘惑,可是他真得要在基督里安靜得多,還有--,所有的人就在我的淚光中把我自己內心對他們的隔閡消融了. 感謝主.

1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

2. Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

3. Be still, my soul, though dearest friends depart
And all is darkened in the vale of tears;
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrows and thy fears.
Be still, my soul; thy Jesus can repay
From His own fulness all He takes away.

4. Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

"Be Still, My Soul"
by Catharina von Schlegel, 1697-?
Translated by Jane Borthwick, 1813-1897
Text From:
THE LUTHERAN HYMNAL
(St. Louis: Concordia Publishing House, 1941)