今天在教会坐一老太太左手,她和她离婚的儿子坐在边上,我坐靠里头,当我们唱 Be still, my soul的时候,我的眼泪悄悄地流淌,泪光中看见她打开她的提包取出手纸擦眼睛,大家都在看自己的HYMM BOOK,谁也没看谁,我也不用掩饰,几次抬手擦泪花,奇妙地是,我只有右眼不停地流,左眼只是盈框而不流淌,那一刻我强烈地感受到和她同被圣灵感动地奇妙,淹没在一群同样的羊中,和着悠扬的比印度女人还脆的众女声,还有混在一起却截然分明的刚健的男声,Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

感动之余,心里对这些一家三代同教会从小就受洗的人没了隔阂,以前,老觉得他们不过是习惯成自然,没有我这样背景born again的感受,可是看看人家,这个离婚的儿子,他和我差不多同时办离婚,他现在还未再婚,他的前夫人无可挽回地和他人同居,他自己现在忙着教会的诸多事宜,他还是个男的应该比我一个女人更难抵挡诱惑,可是他真得要在基督里安静得多,还有--,所有的人就在我的泪光中把我自己内心对他们的隔阂消融了. 感谢主.

1. Be still, my soul; the Lord is on thy side;
Bear patiently the cross of grief or pain;
Leave to thy God to order and provide;
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul; thy best, thy heavenly, Friend
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.

2. Be still, my soul; thy God doth undertake
To guide the future as He has the past.
Thy hope, thy confidence, let nothing shake;
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul; the waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while He dwelt below.

3. Be still, my soul, though dearest friends depart
And all is darkened in the vale of tears;
Then shalt thou better know His love, His heart,
Who comes to soothe thy sorrows and thy fears.
Be still, my soul; thy Jesus can repay
From His own fulness all He takes away.

4. Be still, my soul; the hour is hastening on
When we shall be forever with the Lord,
When disappointment, grief, and fear are gone,
Sorrow forgot, love's purest joys restored.
Be still, my soul; when change and tears are past,
All safe and blessed we shall meet at last.

"Be Still, My Soul"
by Catharina von Schlegel, 1697-?
Translated by Jane Borthwick, 1813-1897
Text From:
THE LUTHERAN HYMNAL
(St. Louis: Concordia Publishing House, 1941)